Finding it harder and harder to believe in anything anymore. I really want everything to end.

You know how in every fairy tale there's a prince and a princess that are meant to be together? A couple that loves each other unconditionally and monogamously...as if without one another they'd be incomplete?

Now you know how everyone claims that in "reality" that can't happen? Well, why not?

Why can't the reality be as powerful as the dreams we create in the crevices of our hearts? Why is it that our mind impairs us to believe that it's truly impossible to a achieve such a blissful reality. I for one know that i won't stop believing, no, shes out there for me. The only fantasy is in believing that she'll magically come to you as if some gift from a greater being. No, that's not that way to go about things!

You pursue it, pursue it til you lack the energy to persist and do so anyway!

Love, love is there, just open your eyes, you'll see.

and quite frankly, i miss her...

Listen to your heart.

As the gods of old clashed vigorously against the vile titans
My conscience wages a dark, dreadful war against my chivalrous heart

Infused with paranoia my conscience can no longer differenciate between reality and fiction
My heart painfully persists, remaining truthful and loyal

As thoughts of despair and agony lay siege to the already mixed theories in my conscience
My heart fights valiantly, refusing to lose hope for that which glows ever so vibrantly in its chambers

The Gigantic weights of stress attempt to drive my conscience into a mindless frenzy
My heart, strains harder and harder, holding true to the values it proudly brandishes

When all seems lost her voice whispers softly
My conscience is deaf to such a subtle, yet meaningful voice
Yet my heart stands strong, invigorated with the gentle voice of its source; that which grants it endless rapture

As the gods of old clashed vigorously against the vile titans
My heart wages on in its "crusade of love" refusing to succumb to the thoughts of my conscience

Ever since the birth of our nation, favoritism has been an extremely controversial topic; both domestically and foreign. One of the greatest father's of our nation, George Washington directly advised against it in his farewell address. The question is, why would such a thing create worry in one of our most renown forefathers; why is it crucial to always remain neutral?

fa·vor·it·ism /ˈfeɪvərɪˌtɪzəm, ˈfeɪvrɪ-/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[fey-ver-i-tiz-uhm, feyv-ri-] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation
–noun 1. the favoring of one person or group over others with equal claims; partiality: to show favoritism toward the youngest child.
2. the state of being a favorite.

This is an extremely sharp double-edged sword. One that can severe bonds and cause immense pain and suffering to one-self. The problem that arises with favoritism, as inevitable as it may seem; is that it creates a strong bias towards a single individual or a groups point of view. We all have our favorites, although this may not seem like such a dreadful thing to most; it creates enough animosity to lead one to make poor decisions simply because "said person" believes so. It takes away from ones character and clouds their judgement, weakening them as an individual. Although the phrase "united we stand, divided we fall" has some viability, there has to be a natural balance in which we remain our own person, being unaffected by the influence of others (be it girlfriends/boyfriends, friends, family, etc). I personally constantly succumb to this "influence" and easily lose balance in the presence of one that i would like to impress, most likely a girlfriend. As many have witnessed the decisions that i have taken in part of degrading others in order to attain that "cool" status.

Jefferson was the first to try to completely avoid favoritism with his Embargo Act of 1807. After only two years, Jefferson (another historical legend of our nation) realized that any attempt at completely ignoring favoritism can lead to devastating consequences. Which brings me back to my point that favoritism is in no way a bad thing, unless of course taken into extremes. It is crucial for everyone to realize the importance of this "natural balance" if they wish to live a calm, peaceful life.

Beneath the limitless wonders of the starry night, I gazed into her eyes; engulfed with passion i reached out, unsure of what would come of it. Scared, i pondered over past grievances; scars not easily forgotten by ones heart. Indulged in fear i reached out...

As her eyes stared at me, i felt naked, completely defenseless against the wraths that might be brought down upon my being as i let her approach, getting closer to the very thing i've tried so hard to protect.

Like a midnight symphony on the fourth of July, vibrant colors and brilliant lights sparked the sullen flames of our hearts. Like the beauty witnessed in fantasia, our love began to grow; one with the musical rhythm of our hearts.

what purpose does it serve an individual to speak poorly of anothers faults?
Just because one might not be as well endowed in certain places as others. Is it truly necesary to constantly bash on those which have done nothing to us for personal fulfillment?

I personally see no point in such a pitiful action. If one has such deep and miserable insecurities with their own being that they must shoot others down to their level for what? a few "laughs" it's dreadful and pathetic. I truly pity all those that need to swoop down to such levels. I laugh at you because you can't find anything better to do with your meaningless lives. Go whack off to a relationship you'll probably never have.

Empty the many hallways of your mind, the multiple dark recesses that cloud your thoughts.

Now picture a single light, weak, defenseless, alone. The light slowly begins to take shape, little legs sprout out from its sides, a head pops out from the top.

It takes of the form of a single larva, the beginning of a new life. As time passes by the larva becomes stronger, more rigid through the experiences of its life. It learns of the dangers of its predatorys and its scarce food supply.

The larva grows and becomes a caterpillar, more experience, more aware of how to better survive in its surroundings. Developing several defensive methods to protect itself, it continues its pursuit for the only thing it cares for, food.

Being careful on the amount of food it absorbs, the caterpillar forages around the enormous world it lives in. patiently waiting to find just the right quantaties of food it requires.

As its time comes, the caterpillar picks a location, somewhere in which it finds comfort and begins to crystalize, taking the shape of a hardened cocoon it waits in its slumber for something marvelous to occur.

After waiting patiently its opportunity arrises. The diamond like cocoon begins to shatter. From within sprouts a wing, then another, and finally, the once ugly, defenseless cocoon is reborn as a wonderful, vibrant and beautiful butterfly. Proudly waving vast arrays of its flamboyant colors, it shows its beauty to the world. Fluttering in unison like the entwined beats of two hearts chained together by love.

After patiently waiting for its time, its opportunity, the butterfly, love, grew strong, so powerful that the constant hardships of the problems that arise in life can do nothing to make it squinter, to dissolve.

Love, the light which grows ever so vividly within all of us begins as a larva and aspires to become a butterfly.

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These feelings inside me devour the essence of my soul. Excitement, confusion, the bursts of energy that fuel my emotions.

Temptation looms over, stitched to my being like its shadow filled with rage and indulged with desire.

Your beauty, your elegance, the very quirkiness of your personality. It all calls to me, like an unseen attraction of forces.

Behind a smile I fight valiantly, attempting to null the beast within. For I shall remain a silent admirer...

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